Thursday, December 29, 2011

Random #2

Assalamualaikum.

We meet again, blog.
Pls appreciate me :)

My manager is pregnant.
Congrats Miss Shafawati Osman

Met my awesome-insane-hyper friends this evening.
1) Nadia Azni
2) Wani Zainuddin
3) Syud Shah
4) Iskandar Zulkarnain
5) Afaa Gomez

First time Wani drive kereta
and I sat at the backseat.
As she said "failed 3x pun, at least ada lesen"
Tahniah! Haha~

obviously google image.


Still not found my broadband.
How I'm going to survived at UIA Gombak??
Need to find it! NEED TO!

mine, right side in the middle line. #Ithinkso


Twitter wasn't good as she's there.
Annoying~

Found the song yang aku cari selama ni
" Pixie Lott - All About Tonight "
Tak dengar mcm suara Pixie pun
Auto-tuned #maybe

Love on Top dance is awesome!
Laki jangan tengok.
Haram. Dosa. Sexy. Shaytan.


Kbye. Wassalam

Second Round Tag

Salam Alayk.
I've been tagged by minah kedah again. hahaha~
I tak anti budak kedah okay. I suka sgt loghat hampa.
Okay go back to the tagging thingy.



Name : Ainaa Kay Zee *no mention about Full Name
Brother(s) : 3 brother 2 sisters
Eye colour : Black Brown
Shoe size : *secret*

Hair colour : Black.
Piercing : Yes, long time ago. Still hv the holes #Ithink
Height : 163 cm
What are you wearing right now : T-shirt and pants
Where do you live : Subang Jaya
Favorite number : 10
Favorite drink : Cold water
Favorite month : October
Favorite breakfast : MBG Fruit, Omelette

HAVE YOU EVER
Broken a bone : Yes. Twice.
Been in a police car : No
Fallen for a friend : Kot
Fallen for a guy/girl in a short time : Tah
Swam in the ocean : Nope
Fallen asleep in school : Every time when I was in boarding school
Broken someone's heart : No answer
Cried when someone died : Yes, I did.
Sat by the phone all the night waiting for someone call : No
Saved email : Yes
Been cheated : Prank adalah kot.

WHAT
Your room look a like : Ok
What is right beside you : Teddy Bear kakak aku *rasa nak buang je!
What is the last thing you ate : Mihun goreng and telur mata kerbau

WHO
Who did you last yell : Ahmad Muhammad Qadiemy bin Ramly a.k.a Kodeng
Who was the last person you danced with you : Alone
Who last made you smile : Ramai sangat. Harini aku senyum dari pagi sampai ptg ok.

FINAL QUESTION
What are you listening right now : Love On Top - Beyonce
What did you do today : Worked. Hang out.
Are you the oldest : No
Indoors or outdoors : Outdoors

TODAY DID YOU
Talk to someone you like : Ada ke?
Kiss someone : No
Sing : Totally!
Talk to an Ex : Ex-classmate & schoolmate ada ler.
Miss someone ? : Yes.
Eat : Done.

LAST PERSON YOU TALKED WHO
You talked on the phone to : Nur Zawani binti Zainuddin
Made you cry : Farah Hana a.k.a Mena (jr clique kat tempat kerja sbb bengang sgt!)
You went to the mall with : I'm working at Mall :)
Who cheered you up : Nadia, Syud, Wani, Is and Afaa

HAVE YOU
Been to Mexico : No
Been to USA : No

RANDOM
Have a crush on someone : Yup! Jujur ni.
What books are you reading right now : Tengah ngadap laptop
Best feeling in the world : When I've finished my exams :D
Kids name : *secret*
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal : Kucing aku tidur dgn stuff aku adalah.
What's under your bed : Zeroo
Favorite sport : Badminton
Favorite place : My home with the fastest Unifi ever!

Who do you really hate : Yang perangai buruk tu, gua benci.
Do you have a job : Yes. Full time but temporary.
What time is it now : 10:31pm -my laptop's time

P.s Malas nak tag sesiapa. Buat jela wahai my blog's readers.

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Random #1

Assalamualaikum
Yeah, first of all, I got lots of story.
I think I wanna put the title as Untitled
but I change it to 'Random'.
Settle!

My eldest sister just arrived the Egypt at 3pm Malaysia.
I don't know my feeling, though.
Miss her? Glad? Happy? Or....
Nvm, change topic!

I just took my transcript as more than 2 weeks
I postponed it.
Now, CFS Nilai is closed. Officially.

my ex mahalah. block A


My days just good. Flows like a river.
My mood is upside down. No comment.
Yeah, I do miss my friends esp SARJANIANS.

Okay, just stop it with the crying-missing stories.

I'm going to quit the job.
Middle of Jan. Better then :)
To settle up my things.

This blog has not update for a long time.
As I'm using twitter (mini blog)
But I do miss the blog much!
Hi blog :-B

I bought (my dad belanja) a new sweater at kLia.
It was sooooo cheap! But nice ^_^
see, the AERO word? its AEROPLANE!

As my ________ (friend / brother / sister) *pls fill up by yrself
sangat kedekut dgn sweater kusam dia #blah
Thanks for let me use for more than 2 months, babe.

Oh ya, congrats to my lil twin bro.
Their PMR result was better than mine.
Sorang 8A, sorang 4A 4B.
Hebat tu!

Last two days was my parents' anniversary.
Happy Anniversary!!
I treated them at Sari Ratu Nasi Padang Restaurant at Subang Parade.
No picture btw.
As something not-really-good happened.
Ah, just forget it.
And the bill was, was, was SHUT UPPP -___-"
For me sometimes we do need to boros just for our family

Till we meet again, blog.
Wslm

Monday, December 19, 2011

Offer Letter

Assalamualaikum and selamat tengah hari :)

It's been almost 3 months I'm in holiday
and yeah, I do working
as if I'm just stay at home, my weight will increasing NON-STOP!

Alhamdullillah, on 15th of December
I got an offer letter from UIA Gombak
to further my study for Degree :)
*sujud syukur*

p.s Ermmm I don't know how to put the picture version pdf

So, no picture yeah! Teehee~ :D

pemandangan UIA Gombak dari atas Bukit Tabur. such a beautiful!

Friday, November 04, 2011

Thanks Lily Suhaili

Assalamualaikum. Hi guys :)

Post ni, kononnya nak buat on 30th or 31st October, tapi takdir kata harini aku buat post mendalah ni.
So, ni dia. Tada!


So, here's the rules :
  1. You must post there rules
  2. Each person must post 11 things about themselves in their journal
  3. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post. And create 11 new questions for the people you tagged to answer.
  4. You have to choose 11 people to tag and link them on the post
  5. Go to their page and tell them you have tagger HIM/HER
  6. No tag back!
  7. No stuff in the tagging section about "YOU ARE TAGGED IF YOU ARE READING THIS" YOU LEGITIMATELY (a.k.a REALLY, TRUST, WITH ALL HONESTY) have tagged 11 people

Eleven things about me :
  1. Agak Poyo-poyo ayam
  2. A lil bit Ego
  3. Berangan jadi kurus
  4. Minat gila kat key chains and perfumes
  5. Tak pernah couple
  6. Bajet alim tapi tudung tak labuh mana
  7. Boleh jadi gila-gila, boleh jadi sadis
  8. Layanan terhadap wanita lagi baik berbanding lelaki
  9. Bukan penjaga handphone yg terbaik
  10. Demand benda tapi takkan beli pun
  11. Setia pada yang lama spt Laptop Acer, Windows XP
Persoalan dari cik mek kedah :
  1. Pendapat anda tentang facebook ? = Fb? Entahla. Xsuka. Create problems
  2. Single or couple ? = Single ROCK!
  3. How about my blog ? Nga ha ha = Syok gila habisss. Ayat kedah tu top!
  4. Maksud nama anda ? = Ketinggian Cahaya Mata yang cantik
  5. Pendapat anda kawen muda ? = Ok je. Haha~
  6. Pernah tak tanpa sebab benci orang ? = Benci tak, xsuka ada je.
  7. Suka shopping ? = DAMN TAK!
  8. Kalau malas pi kelas, still pe jugak or ponteng ? = Pergi tapi lambat :-"
  9. When is your birthday ? = Terang tang tang kat blog aku
  10. What website you spend most on time ? = Twitter and Youtube kot
  11.  English / Malay / KoreaJapan movies ? = Obviously, English!
Soalan aku :

- Rapat tak dengan orang yang tag anda ni?

- Hand phone jenama apa sekarang?

-Study kat mana and course apa?

- Mak Ayah sihat?

- Seumur hidup, berapa kali pindah rumah?

- Pernah mengigau berjalan tak?

- Ada berapa orang adik beradik?

- Panggilan manja dgn family?

- Amukan paling teruk anda lakukan?

- Artis Malaysia paling anda tak suka?

- Describe yourself in 3 words only

Ni orangorang yang aku main hentam tag. Sorry!
Airina, Safra, Shaza, Wani, Amal, Ninie, Ikha, Syerol, Ejad, Cumy, Maria Elena


p.s betul ke Lily? aku main hentam je buatt. buat muka katak jap =___= #okdah

Saturday, October 08, 2011

1, 2, 3, ###

 " Menghitung hari, detik demi detik. Masa ku nanti apakan ada. Jalan cerita, kisah yang panjang. Menghitung Hari "


Salam A'laik y'ols.
How's your days? How's your holidays? (Foundation UIA's & UiTM's students)
How's your life? (My old & long-distance friends)

Yep, I'm counting here - again . . and again . . and again . . .



During that day, I hope that I'll get

  • Call from Nike, Jordan to wish me & talk with me
  • Wish from my parents at Tanah Suci
  • Wish from my busy friends (SRIIMDE, SARJANA, 7teen, CFS, Camps)
  • Wish from my siblings
  • Wish from my families (uncles, aunties, cousins, nephews, nieces etc)
  • Wish from my adopt family :D (kes mengada-tergedik-lebih)
  • makan kat or  
  • last but not least,

You guys may think that this blog's owner is demand.

I might say " YES & NO"

Yes, because I'm going to be a -ty not -teen

No, because this is my wish, either I get or not, it doesn't matter.

I'm not going to cry-blood like hell if I do not get it. Kan?



p.s siapa yang belanja, pintu rumah dibuka luas-luas ;D
p.s I closed the comment post, so anything, just shout it out!

Thursday, October 06, 2011

Enjoy or Dead Cry?

Assalamualaikum. Just sangatsangat sedih sekarang ni. 
Bukanlah sedih apa, just hiba sayu sebak apabila
the two persons that I love most in this world akan menjadi tetamu Allah...



Alhamdullillah buat mereka. Tahniah! Semoga mendapat Haji Mabrur. ameen~

Mereka telah dihantar ke TH Kelana Jaya, then akan berangkat ke Tanah Suci on
6th October 2011, 0555 Malaysia time.

Since ramai yang akan menunaikan Haji, satu rule telah dikeluarkan org pihak TH bahawasanya

"ANDA DILARANG SAMA SEKALI UTK MENGHANTAR MEREKA YANG AKAN KE HAJI DI LAPANGAN TERBANG"

tgk semua para bakal haji dan hajah shj

itu jela. dah pukul 0341 ni. tak lama la tu nak naik flight dah ;(
wassalam~

p.s please doakan mereka selamat pergi dan pulang ke Malaysia ini & doa-doa mereka dimakbulkan. insyaAllah! sama-samalah kita doakan jua.

Monday, September 05, 2011

Perempuan vs Lelaki : Part Gaduh

Assalamualaikum.

Selamat Hari Raya, Selamat Menyambut Merdeka ke-54

Mohon maaf atas segala-gala-gala dosa @ kesalahan #hibatibatiba 10 - 10 lah antara kita yea =D

Okay, just that [nak masuk cerita pasal title kat atas pulak]



S.T.A.R.T
 Persoalan ini didatangkan oleh Muhammad Hanizam b Razali (kot), class-mate Sk1 '08/9 aku

"Kenapa perempuan kalo gaduh, susah nak berbaik?"

Here the answers : ~

1) Perempuan tak macho - laki kalo gaduh lama2, memang TAK MACHO langsung. jatuhlah standard :D

2) Perempuan tak professional - mesti nak campurkan personal, kerja & life dalam satu kuali

3) Emotional terlebih - ikut perasaan je. tak rasional langsung =.=

4) Ber'geng' - manada perempuan gaduh 1 lawan 1. mesti ada geng or back up plan. kan?

5) Think too much - mesti pikir lebih2. cthnya, kalo aku baik dgn dia, apa aku dpt? dia buat same mistake or tak? etc etc

Selebihnya korang pikiaq lah sendiri. Aku dapat pikir ni je. Penat keluar idea bebanyak. Bukan org baca blog aku pun.



Nway, aku ada masalah dgn kawannn juga. Normal la, adat berkawan maa. The point is aku dah minta maaf banyakkk kali (even I don't even know my fault) tapi NO RESPOND #sad

Aku berdoa semoga Allah buka pintu hati mereka utk maafkan aku & berbaik seperti dahulu kala. Amiin!

p.s ada lagi part lain..nantikannya!

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Ramadhan's Culture

Assalamualaikum. Hello semua.

Aku tau Ramadhan dah nak sampai di penghujungnya ;(

tapi nak jugak buat entry ni..


Which one is you?

1. Makan dulu baru solat
2. Tamar, solat baru makan


(duadua boleh.tapi jgn lewatkan berbuka.jgn lewatkan solat)


You are in...

1. 8 rakaat

2. 20 rakaat



(duadua ada hadith sahih boleh buat.pilih mana yang mampu)

p.s semua Muslim's blogger mesti akan ada entry Ramadhan, Puasa, Terawih, Berbuka, Lailatul Qadr etc

Monday, August 15, 2011

BIGG Smile!

Assalamualaikum. Happy Monday everybody!!

Right now, I can't stop smiling. SMILEEEE =)

BIGBIGBIG :)

Because ...
[ni bukan kes falling in love okayy]



I've finish my assignment. (kecoh gila kau. macam orang lain tak siap pulak)
No, don't judge yet. Actually, I'm done on Literature Review. 1st impression, susah gilaaa!
After consult Sr Alizaman, I get it. It's reallyreally easy and awesome

Serious, siapa yang tak consult Sr mmg susah because you guys tak faham. And pls guys, he's really nice man. Dia strict sebab he wanted to change us. He wanted to help us.
Kita masih banyak salah and silap. Dgn our poverty culture. Non-Islamic nya.



So, be professional and open minded. Normal la kena halau kelas, assignment rejected and more. It's the valuable experience maa. Chill~


p.s Thanks Sir for everything. Sorry if pernah make u upset w/ my attitude =D


Saturday, August 13, 2011

Mencari Barang Hilang

Assalamualaikum ..

Ni saja kongsi ilmu dengan korang tentang tajuk entry di atas =) baik tak I? winkwink

On 11 Aug, before bertolak ke PJ, aku ada class petang tu. 3 - 4 ptg.

Then tunggu bus UIA yg laju patut dtg pukul 4ptg tapi sampai pukul 5:30ptg baru nampak batang hidung. Dey!




Then, atas bus tu, aku carilah dompet aku. caricaricari. Tak jumpa. Either aku cicir kat tempat aku tunggu bus, blok C or kat dalam dorm. Aku yakin aku bawak ke class tadi. Aku pun contact budak2 dorm aku. Tolong carikan dompet aku tu.

mana aku letak dompet niii

1st dorang tak jumpa, then ada one dorm mate, Amal mesej "kalo aku hilang barang, aku baca surah Ad-Dhuha 3 times and cakap mcm ni : Ya Allah, jika barang tersebut memang milikku, kembalikanlah"



Aku ikut apa Amal sarankan. Suddenly, dapat mesej dari Mekta, "dah jumpa dompet, atas katil Tikah"

Alhamdullillah. Tapi aku sgtsgt yakin aku bawak pergi kelas.

P/s TQ Allah. I owe YOU lots! I can pay YOU by worship YOU.

Sunday, July 24, 2011

45 Life's Tips

Assalamualaikum. Hello hello. Anyway, I don't know if the title have connection with my entry for this time. Just read it lah. U want to take it, take it. If tak mau, bye-bye :)

Written by Regina Brett, 90 years old, of the Plain Dealer, Cleveland, Ohio.

" To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most requested column I've ever written "

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's NOT OK to get angry with God.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.

16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take NO for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood.

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all throw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

42. The best is yet to come...

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

44. Yield.

45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

p/s I got this from email. Sent by my mom. Thank mak!!


Sunday, July 17, 2011

Heart you, China

Salam A'laik Peoples. This entry , I just drop more pictures than my words. Here it comes ,






All pictures above are picture of Great Wall of China

And all pictures down here are picture of  China's Jiaozhou Bay Bridge
< World's Longest Bridge Over Water >






Ow mann . I reallyreally want to go to China .. Wanted sooo much!! I don't know why I heart China damn far king. I want to stay there at least 3 years, may I, mom? ;)

p.s my late grandma side my dad is Chinese. Maybe, that's why I'm being like "CHINAAA"

Friday, June 24, 2011

What Korean's Celebrities Have?

Assalamualaikum. Anyo~ :)

Korang ingat tak dulu, dlm subjek sejarah, Tun Dr Mahathir ada buat "Dasar Pandang ke Timur". Ingat tak? Ingat tak? Kalau tak ingat, sahihlah anda belajar krn EXAM. Ish3, teruk!

Tahukah anda, kepada TDM buat dasar tersebut? Sbbnya beliau mahu kita, Malaysian, utk ikut attitude org Timur di sana iaitu Japang & Korea. Kenapa eyh? Sebab mrk di sana sgt menjaga adab tatasusila sopan mrk. Perempuan gelak tutup mulut. Mrk juga punctual w/ their time. Kalau nak meeting dgn dorang, pukul 8 nak jumpa, at least 7.45 dah sampai. Or else u're considered as LATE!

Walau bagaimana pun, peminat & pencinta Korea tak pernah utk cuba analysis benda2 ni. Yang hanya korang tau, handsome cantik cute kurus tinggi putih dll. Utk pengetahuan korang juga, MOST KOREAN CELEBRITY HAVE DEGREE. Wah! Teruja kan? Bandingkan dgn artis Malaysia. Berapa kerat sgt yang b'education. Lepas tu, sibuk nak ikut style Korea apa semua.

Style tu tak ada masalah, tapi why not kita amik yang lagi baik > tentang adab, tentang masa & tahap pendidikan. Isn't it?

p.s the only thing yg aku layan korea adalah Family Outing , published on 2008. I start layan on 2009 :D


Anasayoo~

Friday, June 17, 2011

Diet ? !

Assalamualaikum. Hmm actually tak ada idea nak tulis apa. Just nak inform, that I've already start my diet since this week, last Monday. I don't take a rice [ saved money too. yeay! :) ] . But still need to do some work out right? Itu yang masalah utama. Tak ada teman nak ajak jogging. Pelajar CFS Nilai memang kaki study and laptop je. Aigo~ -.- Siapa nak teman? :D teehee.

two is better than one. so, jom jogging sama2 :P


p.s insyaAllah, by end of this year, susut yea. Doakan aku displin. Thankyou, thankyou.

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Langgar Pantang.

Assalamualaikum. Entry kali ni nak cakap pasal pantang. Semua org ada pantangnya sendiri. Pantang lepas bersalin. Pantang dgn makanan (okay itu alergik).
However, yang aku nak sentuh kat sini tentang aku pantang dgn beberapa perangai & tingkah laku manusia.

Aku pantang org yg lepaskan amarah dia kat org lain, yg terkadang tak tahu menahu apa ke benda. Pantang gilo weh!

Lepas tu, aku pantang org yg hipokrit over cover baik punya. Memang la hipokrit itu penting. Takkan bila kita tak suka something, kita show one whole world. Kena la respect org lain. Kena jaga air muka org jugak. Takkan ikut kepala sendiri je. But this is what we called as 'behave' or 'manner', bukan hipokrito! = talam dua muka

Pantang jugak org yg suka ikut kepala dia sendiri je. Egoistic! Hanya dia yg betul. Org mcm ni, akan aku bidas dia habis - habisan. I wanna tell him / her that u're not always right. If everybody just nodding their head, I'm the one not doing that.

Aku jugak pantang bila dia buat kat org boleh, org buat kat dia tak boleh. Hey, what u give, u get more okay. Dlm Qur'an pun ada tertulis.

Last sekali, aku pantang tikam belakang kawan mcm dalam cerita Odd Girl Out [klik]. Grr. Nauzubillah, kalau aku kena, I hope he / she will face the same thing triple times.


p.s sedang pantang dari benda2 yang mengemukkan > 
- ni je yg aku blh pikirkan buat masa tgh bengkek ni -

Thursday, June 09, 2011

Friends and Lovers

Assalamualaikum. Heyya! Back Nilai back. Last semester on this foundation. Hopefully, I'll archive my target to be the best student among the best. Even it is quite late. But nvm, "Where's a will, There's a way" isn't it? Praypray.

Actually, I'm not born as a blogger or a writer. I just know that I can talk, surely. Haha~ Stupid Joke.

The topic I'm going to post is about one book that I've read it. This book : ~ !


Have u heard about this book? Or u found it in any bookstore? Hopefully, if u MEET this book, please please read. Seriously, is good for motivation. For those who always think life is unfair, life is su*ks and whatsoever, do read this book.

Inside this book, I've found all these quotes ;
  • Without FRIEND, no one would choose to live, though he had all other goods
  • FRIENDS may come and go, but Enemies accumulate
  • All people want is someone to listen
  • To like and dislike the same things that is indeed true Friendship
  • Friendship is certainly the finest balm for the pangs of disappointed love
  • Passion makes the world go round. Love just make it safer place
  • When someone allows u to bear his burdens, u have found deep Friendship

p.s this book is in Malay. I don't know if there's an English Version *_*

Thursday, June 02, 2011

Respect.

Assalamualaikum. Hello, new month huh? So, new story!

Actually, I'm not going to story something about my life or mine mine, but I'm going to share about my opinion. Yeah my opinion. If u don't agree with it, pls just respect MY OPINION. haha~ tQ

Okay, let just begin . . . In this world, (I mean Malaysia), Muslim are the majority, isn't it? But there's some of them not covering the aurah, not perform the solah, not paying the zakah and more. However, I/we as their family, their friends or even their society shouldn't force them to do what they don't want to do.

Rasullullah also said, "there's no forcing to join the Islam" but if we're born as Muslim, we must to follow the rules. For those who don't want to follow it, up to them. If we love them, we JUST guide them to right path. If we can't guide them, we can pray for them.


So, just this for today. Thank you for read it. Wassalam

p/s hate this damn much --> yr grave it yrs. my grave is mine!